I may have scared her with all my emails nonsense about a war and she took it seriously enough to simply go back to her country, a safer one than canada: New zealand.

With carney in power and no doubt poislievre in 4 years, she did well to leave.

The poislievre years as i expect us to know after many liberal mandates, in a few years, next election, will be nasty for canada. Carney is pretty nasty too.

Basically, northern america is taken over by pure assholes and stupid nasty banker as political options.

I dont want to think about it. It will send me wishing I die a hero again for noreason i can understand....ha ha ha...I have always thought I would die with a bang. And never of courseof suicide.

I may be totally wrong of course. But everything in my written work has streaks of excellence. and a bit originally wise. It deserves to be read by a wide audience. I am pretty sure one day, maybe after iam dead, the work of clever penname Lilou volage dite sage,  will be rediscovered. I really dont mind not ever being mainstream but my work deserves cult following status. Yes, i said my main sin is vanity. But truly, my pen name is such genius.  And everything i write about is based somehow onthings lived or felt or inspired by my loved ones. That is real artistry. Never fake. Never for the masses at least not of my living as I represent the class of people the mass usually lynches: the mentally ill and free.