The feeling is heightened fragility today. No energy. I slept all night with Charlotte who stayed, for some reason this time. I am so sad at this lack of respect for me from hubby. It dowright hurts today to have woken up by being yelled to shut up. He takes me so much for granted and has zero tenderness for me. OH well, you get a real good view of married life, bikkuhinis everywhere.One married life anyway. The depth of my sadness comes from his harsh words. No warmth for me. No tolerance.

The lemon water really refreshes me and helps cut through too many cigarettes and lack of vitamin C after the flu last week.