Infinitely sad day today. Started with BJG telling me to shut up because I was calling Billy.

His lack of heart is sadening. As is his total utter contempt at respecting me. Laurel has not been back since 8am. I have no more energy left to suffer hubby's meaness and disrespect for no reason and all the time.

I have changed the book about the birch tree angry and will not be honouring him and our marriage on it at the back- a simple full page picture of me and my truth of love, Billy, instead, will be printed. bjg appreciated nothing and it totally ungrateful in how he speaks to me and treats me. I have been trying to honour him and our marriage throughout the years and my work. I give up now.The bitch shut her yap.