The lifestyle involves many nights up writing and reading nonchalantely.

Its harder on my mental health of course.

I really find it ridiculousto believe I was the 14th dalai lama.

I feel like there was way way too much anger expression in me to be truth.

Anyway, it is a good story and brings faith in some.

The monk life I wish to live is to walk for peace, suffer physically and survive it, and pray only all along. I dont particualrly like poverty but it is life on earth and we gain much much merit for our kamma when we are poor and dont whine to God about it. I would not have enjoyed a life long of poverty in this life. But I am reminded of Jesus and the walk for peace monks and learn to change my mind...slowly.