I thank God for the two miracles I did with witness otherwise I would really think myself simply crazy and not holy in any way.

I am not enlightened.

I am way too attached to material comforts to be enlightened. That is a fact in my mind. We must all learn to take a vow of poverty one day, as monks or nuns. It is THE best to make a quick jump into finally reaching better levels of enlightenment forever in our futures and present.

but it is truly not fun to be super poor.

Especially that as a lay, you quickly lose your friends when you are poor.

It is not meant to be fun to be poor- it is meant to test us in our devotion to God or buddhas. It is self sacrificing and I hope we can all have the strenght in eternity to chose poverty as monks or nuns here and there throughout eternal life. If only to honour jesus.