This nun lived in ABSOLUTE poverty all her life and controled her outward anger amazingly self restrained all her nun life.

And probably even before.

THEREFORE

She is Charlotte who is an avenger and rescue dog first and foremost and can be so fierce she decides to spare the life of a man.

Charlotte seems to be you Ayya.

Very close after your bardo.

A wonderful dog life where you get EVERYTHING your heart missed out on as a moderate nun. No drugs for you for a long time, as youare never crazy messed up broken for a long long time. This ayya life has so much merit.