Jesus in his pity says I did very well and suffered quite a bit for many decades though rich enough to travel in my youth before or in between crisis.

My capacity was not enormous to forgive my parents for the longest time.

I am a bit disappointed at how angry I have been all my life as Lilou after 30 years old and as a young child.

It IS easy to adore humanity when everyone treats you with complete loving respect like in my 14th dalai lama. Way harder when you feel trashed all along...something to meditate about your religious leaders that look so advanced, everyone, but are glamour.