Yes, and THAT is why i had such a life where everywhere I went I felt only hatred and indifference.

The REAL human world does not love everyone unconditionally. Only if you have high status do you get that in any lifetime.

So my life was a TOTAL make over of epxerience: desacrated by mom as a baby with poog no doubt, alienated form my famiyl at a young age I always felt crazy with them...Then 30 years with hubby who was also mad as a hatter with violent words and insults constant for about 10 years. Then the tortures by assholes I dont know whom in 2006.

And finally, healing after tempering with my meds in BC: first, visions for 4 years where I finally became a master of my mind and fears. Then increasing my meds on a regular basis to get back to normality.

No more visions They were super incredible but I was alone with God.