The rain is falling. The radio upstairs is on and playing. I feel happy right now, joyful I mean. Simple life is so very good and not having had a boss for 20 years was fabulous. I work for everyone's wellbeing at home only by now and on my books and blogs.

This has led me to explore my mind in depth over the last decades.

Because I has ONLY free time for so long.

And I have become joyfully satisfied most of the time and at deep peace overall with everyone.

THIS feeling and state of peaceful mind and joy is my reward from a life of abuses in the system and hardships. I truly feel, in my life, as if nothing has been in vain. Except my foolishness. Foolishness is super embarassing I find. And can cause hurt. I apologize to all my loved ones for my foolish remarks at times in emails and on the blog. I am honest to God. And too blunt.