I feel so embarassed to ever have said I was a reincaration of anyone. It is so foolish as I truly have no clue deep down, unless I am drunk and riding high and being foolish.

The last week or 10 days has been god sent for more lucidity and sobriety.

Sobriety is the path I must thread and walk.

For my own benefit and the benefit of those I contact and love and know.

How embarassing my drunk rants often are! For a while, I was convinced I would die a hero in a plot I made up. Totally wild is my mind when I drink.

Nowadays, I learn to live in the real world of sober contemplation and insights.

I am more sad but more real.

Much more grounded.