I love when I dont submit to my cravings for sugar and a buzz.

I get way too loopy for it to be good for anyone, including me and my loved ones.

So embarassing are my mad rants. You should have seen what I send a city worker for no reason, who has stopped replying: a wholeplot about how my death could catch a bad guy and make hubby rich. I am mad as a hatter in emails and online when I am very drunk for a few nights in a row, and it is always a shame in the end for me and a pain for others. I have always had much imagination but this drinking makes it outloud in the written emails and blogs I keep sending and keeping.

I lose all filters.

And common sense in emails. So not tonight: tonight is sober. I may fall asleep later because of it but that is fine.

It is almost 21H00 and both dogs are with me. I love it. They have been hanging out more often in hubby's room upstairs recently. So I milk it when I get time with them both.

Our lives are very quiet and we would save much much money without the herb and the booze (for me especially). It would be nice to completely give up ciders but we will see what comes through. A nice thought. No more crazy emails would be delightful.