I feel filthy with sins, dripping with them, right now, thinking abut what I sent my mom and dad about two weeks ago.

I tell them what I think is coming and it is all dreadful for all of us except dad.

I am such a fool when drunk. My mother clearly told me she hates these messages so I better wake up and stop sending them even when piss drunk.

May God help me stay sober. anyway, alcohol is the worst with cigarettes for oral cancer.

May my parents be at peace about me, and may I stop disappointing them.

And worrying them and hurting them unintentionally because I am so foolish and drunk online.

They have been extrardinary in everything they have lived with because of me. May I become their worthy daughter so kind  and sober one day. amen.