I call her once every 3-4 months. She barely calls unless returning my call. Never calls spontaeously I dont think.

Anyway, no one picked up nor did the answering machine.

Too bad. Email works better maybe?

I have not gotten news back from my friend D who underwent surgery last friday.

He said he may disappear for a couple of weeks or something.

I think of him and pray for his recovery quickly and healing prompt.

Om mani peme hung

Om shanti om

amen.

Om tare tuttare ture svoha

I now have officially fleurs de cimetière on my hands....graveyard flowers, the brown spots when you grow older on your skin and you are old.... Sad poetry, right? I turn 50 on anzac day this year, in april.

The evening is going on, started about 5 minutes ago. It is almost 17H00.

I feel somewhat out of touch with most people given my parents too are in Spain and we speak only once every 10 days.

But I am not truly lonesome nor lonely. The happiness is in my daily musings. Sanity, sobriety, half or a third less cigarettes in the last 48 hours.