I explained to her in detail my gut feeling about ever going back to Quebec.

She thought I needed counseing about that...wouldn't that be nice but no therapy anywhere in 10 years for me available.

Such is total lack of services in mental health in BC.

The talk was animated and for the first time since she was a child I heard her complain honestly and simply about douche bags when she got her cat. She suddenly sounded much more warm and human with feelings than usual. She talks very little when we speak often.

Tonight was different and I finally heard her spirit.

Thank you Lord and bouddha. She says dad is quite in pain. I better send good thoughts and prayers for his ease. om shanti om. amen.