I went a bit overboard tonight and smoked 10 cigarettes in 3 hours...

Hubby and I had an animated discussion on life after death and our own personal beliefs...it makes me smoke more as I get excited.

I live hellish dreams nowadays since decreasing cigarettes. I dont know if it plays a role or not but it happened at the same time and since then.

I think thus of hell or what comes after this life if no reincarnation can exist?

may we live our lives to the best of our possibilities to become kinder and wiser by the end so we did not live in vain.

I became all sad considering we may simply disappear into the void or nothingness for a while after our death.

But we learned so little in one lifetime compared to Buddha's omnisience and wisdom!

it seems so natural to come back or go be reborn elsewhere than on earth to learn more.