Yes, I feel so ill from too many smokes and total lack of sleep, good sleep, last night ( I dont recall why).
I hear the downtown train whistle, at the feet of the hill where we live. I have to meditate more nowadays and pray too a bit more.
Losing Laurel is affecting me more than I thought at first, given I expected it since day one.
It came as quite a shock to my life and mind and system. I had not seen a rigor mortis pet body or any body ins such a state, in a long long long time. the last time I lost someone close that affected me as much as Laurel was my grandpa and grandma. That was over 30 years ago. I have been lucky to know very few death tragedies for my loved ones up to now. May it continue that way, please Buddha. Om shanti om!