sigh. Of course not. The joy, such big joy part of everyday, is gone. And hubby is nasty.

It is okay and maybe I can confide and pray to Laurel.

Thank you Laurel for having shared your young years with us all. You sure were close to Charlotte and chased her in the house to cuddle. I think you know what I think today: we have left paradise, since your departure.

It is very okay and I dont hold a grudge to God whatsoever though I am very sad.

Life goes on, but without you, much less joyously and intimately.

Thank you for being my guardian angel for a while if you can and dont mind.

I hope you are tripping nicely and fun in your bardo.

Safe at last.