I always thought him saner than mother. I am not so sure anymore.

He is simply less emotional in his words than mother and never insults unlike mother when I was young.

Mother is fabulous but her end of life shall be extremey boring.

Pain of deep sorrow all along about me.

God thought she failed me as a young mother to a young child. I see no blame on her but God insists.

If you could not treat your Lilou child with respect and care when she sufered, you get the worst punishment: crazy at the end of your life but who so illuminated she truly will become. Every tripping mental state is a reward. Mother will be ecstatic. But she will develop a severe sudden onset of alzeimer. Such are ordinary people too blessed with robust health and success int heir ongoing life, that they often die of sickness. A rite of passage to beter mental states. everyone, dont ever condemn your bio mothers or adoptive mothers. And God will give you a reason to believe in them, even when they were a bit nutty when you were very young and vulnerable.