Now you know why God allowed me to be so sick: he send hubby and his family to provide every single thing material and comforting too for me. What I learned in this life was to master a bit better total hatred and hateful thoughts invading my brain and mind for a long while. I met two very damned soul, one totally damned, who came to live in my heart to speak out and be heard by me. They both lived through me and caused me no harm. They also do not possess anyone except Jesus if they are blessed.