And yes, this whole nightmare was just to learn to pray. It is a real  nightmare. Many pop stars or actress stars have no idea about how important praying is to guard the heart. It is true: as we learn to pray to God, we only see her Kingdom. We see God in evil pains, we are reminded that she chooses everything: to damn us or to save us by teaching us. Since God is perfection in this imperfect world, would you not too, you, give your all EACH TIME to be close to her? Fall in Love if you are so lucky. Do not ever hesitate. Every human being will disappoint you (even Jesus yelled at me).Just God reminding you of Her truly, as the only source of happiness in this world.