As usual when I work hard, yesterday has been SUPER UNHEALTHY. Sigh. This life is horrible for healthy habits. I dont ever remember ever ad eternam ever smoking so many cigarettes....I truly LOVE sobriety and sports. It is my favourite lifestyle in samsara especially as a youth. 

I told God I did not want such a meritorious life for a while. I am a bit depressed at how hard my life has been all along. In truth, if She wants, God rejuvenates us fresh like day one anytime She wants...So I should not worry about getting an easier life soon.  I am pretty sure I get what I ask for in my shrink life. Oh sweetness! I will smoke pot again but never ever be an addict. Being a healthy doctor is a very very very cool life. And yes, you are super wealthy always. Unless you forever work for NGOs across the world. Hey, I'd like to do that one day!