The only thing is that I smoke too much of everything:especially of cigarettes but also of dope. I feel so alive tonight. The shock of my parents lie to me about my sister has made me take a perspective and distance from them once more, at least in my mind. There are plenty of truly loving people in my life now. My life is healthier than its been in years, I am happy, loved, relaxed and quiet. In my book, I have all I truly need. But too much pot.