I opened the patio door, despite the cold, turned off the heat, and put on the fan: the air was too smoky and poor billy has been with me all afternoon. I am relaxing a bit about the blog now. It's been only 3 days that BJG left. Another 11 days. He admits himself that he is a bully and always has been. But he sounds like a proud boy to me in how he refuses to stop being a bully. Sigh. I guess everyone knows this side of him in NZ. I dont understand how he does not want to change this deep fault in him.