This is the first time since 2020 where I realize I dont want to be a woman dalai lama. So, will never be. It is very foreign culture and there is a lot I dont really uphold like the same person except for avelokiteshvara who comes back each time as His or Her Holiness the dalai lama. I dont have a sense of patriotism for Tibet saved for saving the culture , spreading it to the four corners of the globe and freeing tibet. it truly is a beautiful ancient culture of the world. A heritage for humanity. The first time in my life I had a sense of community and belonging and being truly welcomed was with tibetans and the nuns teaching esl. It was wonderful. Everywhere I went to tibetans settlements and towns I was received with open arms.