Hubby is working. A trush is singing. I think it is a trush anyway...I dont know for sure! Hubby has not come down to grab his smoothie. He has not eatne  all day and has been up since 6 am. It is almost noon. I took a hot bath which was divine. Washed my hair. I am will eat more smoohtie and BJG can grab his whenever he feels like it. He gets grumpy when I inteerupt his work so I wont bring it to him. I am tired today. Weening off pot . So thats good. I hope we dont buy pot today nor tomorrow. We are due for some well timed sobriety. 

UPDATE

The day is superb and hot. We had a nice walk in the bush until hubby flipped out and started yelling for the rest of the walk because I interrupted him to call on Billy to stay close to us. He really is aweful and has no idea what respect means if he gets offended just because I interrupt his speech. He went on to say absurd things like I wanted to dominate billy by calling him. He is so unreasonable in his accusations and responses to my behaviour. He has zero tolerance about me and other people... 

I really hope I die before him: he's been telling me he longs to live a life without me for years...I hope he does and sees he is as miserable as ever probably but at least he'll get what he has been screaming for in BC and Toronto. Its hard to think he appreciates me and is grateful I am in his life when I get so much abuse about anything I say or do that he , for one reason or another or no reason at all, hates. He totally misrepresent me in my intentions and character. He is obsess with getting his own word heard about everyone and that is all that matters to him. He wont listen to anyone, even less so me, when we tell him he is wrong about our character and motivations. He is obsessed with calling me a bully.