Since I tampered with the meds injections without doctor supervision and got ill after two years of that, now everyone thinks I dont want to take my meds. What is this, an inquisition where no mistakes in 17 years are allowed? I so need a shrink as good and young and into research as the one who took me off epival and lowered my dose of fluanxol, after scientific observations for a week on epival. I never needed it. In fact, i had already tried it for about 3 months in 2001 after i had asked for it to the hospital doctors. Because my emails and blogs are so all over the place, nothing has been heard of the core of I am. I take medicine very seriously. I am petrified by eps and terrible long term effects, that is all. And it seems fair to try back, slowly, to get me to industry safe range standard of injection dosing. Like I was for 16 years.