I have to think about something else than meds and delusions now. I sent the monograph of fluancol to my GP. He does not know much about it and says things that are false (that you either get eps early or never). There is also TD (I sure hope I never get that) and NMS (oh well, we all have to die someday).

I so very hope I die before hubby. Watch me go: again returning to the macabre and negative. It is  alot to digest in one day. but since hubby is the one who at some point wanted divorce, he should, geelfully perhaps?, experience life without me. I never complained I wanted divorce seriously, so it makes no sense to live the rest of it without him because I am younger.

I am firm believer in the overall correlation between what we do, and how we age accordingly, together or alone. His wish was once to live without me. I hope he gets it. I would be truly a wreck if he died.