My fucked up emails amidst  the coherent and professional one must stop. The GP  now has a totally wrong idea about me. That I dont want to take my meds! its is so wrong and not my idea of my meds AT ALL. After 16 years of relative functionality on it, I think it is clear i need it. When I decreased to less than 40, I could abolutely not cope with Brian. (the second time). I know almost for sure that 30 mg is not enough for me. I tried it for two separate years , Toronto and BC. Maybe it is because I am a heavy smoker (speeds up the breaking down and absorption  of meds)? Maybe it is because of pot?