Oh my, what realisations and emotional ride. today. I am too intense: too intense in my crazy mind and too intense when I am lucid. I was always a very sensitive child. Super ashamed of showing love to anyone. As if my love was never good enough. But I could also be affectionate at times I hope. I dont recall. My mother said sometimes I was charming and delighted in my imagination. Like me, my mom prefered fiction to real family stories.