Ah, I just slept like 11 hours. Or 10.

I am very sad today. It is Life that makes me sad.

Being reborn each time like this. Even when we have been Jeanne D'Arc says everyone...I truly hope Jeanne D'Arc is with Holy Virgin in the sky now. This may not be Lilou. Because when i look back at my life and now, i am infinitely sad. I must have displeased God somehow for real...The ONLY good holy thing right now is David. Maybe God Himself. I truly doubt Jeanne D'Arc would have had my shitty life, even centuries later (sometimes we forget good manners with God). But when I meet David, I think he is God Himself. So that consoles me a LOT about this life with everyone. And David always sees me with Billy. So that consoles me even more! Billy has exquisite manners with God.