I smoke too many cigarettes. A whole pack in not quite 7 hours. It is wild since hubby left. The radio is playing and billy is on my bed or upstairs anyway. It looks like it is going to rain tonight. Maybe I should take the dogs out now?

Laundry is done and the dishwasher is going. I have yet to sweep.  I ate some banana and nuts this morning and hemp seeds. I have to force myself to eat. I have no appetite. I am so worried about what BJG's sisters think of me. Isn't that foolish? They must feel pity for him to have such a sickly wife living online in her imagination.

But all is well. Hubby is happy with family at last again this year. That is all that matters. It is only because I am alone that I am getting paranoid about what his sisters think of me. nothing to do so I get paranoid and worry socially. I am super awkward socially with this blog. But why worry? They are a loving intelligent bunch and I should not worry except that I hope I did not freak them out with this blog. And what I told on it about their bro.