I am alone. I am very worried about eps. And cigarettes. I have been a very hateful person for a while, especially when I was very sick. I think I will have to purge those years in suffering coming. All I can do is meditate and be contrite. Amen.

I am sad today. Because of what I fear is coming from my meds. It is my punishment if it happens. And also quite a regular side effect from fluanxol after almost 20 years.  Maybe that's why it is not legal in the states...?