I tend to have a hate gut reaction about strangers packing up the sidewalks and other places where I go. This has to change. I HAVE to work on relaxing my mind about society. I truly truly hate it after what I have seen in 2005-2006. The ultimate complaint, old as the world itself: nobody cares. I am pissed off generally at everyone i dont know because of this. I dont know what to do about this gut reaction about strangers everywhere. I have to develop pity. I have none. I am pretty sure as a hobo I enjoyed quite a bit watching people go by daily. I felt like no one could see me but I could observe them and enjoy myself. But now, I hate them all because they are stupid humans and they never care about each other when it is uncomfortable or tough or different! I would like to believe this is not true. But I have seen it in Rosie's life and Jordan's life, Dennis life, Dallas life....and my own when I was vulnerable on the streets. This made me beyond angry and I started really telling everyone off. I have to learn pity for strangers, even those with money and eveything. Pity is so very innaccessible to me right now. It was never taught at all. Au contraire.