He is so very nice. I needed to express my disarray at having found out, once more, how sick and out of it I can get though always harmless. He thinks it is the weed. But I love weed so much! I did 8 months sober in two 4 months sessions last year and I guess most of the time I was in better mental health. The doctor at the hospital and my social worker from way back were agreeing too. It is so annoying! If I stopped again, would it help hubby this time  to stop too? We have to have another household discussion about stopping for a while again. He did not stop last year when i did. 

UPDATE

I have ordered a book by a psychosis survivor. HERE

I have to at least be pro active about my health in the coming months. I dont drink but pot and cigarettes are a huge cost and bad for us both. And the animals.  Hopefully, I will get onto reading this book as soon as I get it. It is close enough in topic that it may be helpful for me to read it. But how to restrain pot when hubby always smokes it so heavily?