...but a lot are the same too. I am doing way better than in 2006 that is for sure. I was tough to live healthily without Brian for three years. On welfare on top of that. I really wanted to live alone after those super duper difficult two years. I was in shock from St Joseph and life on the street.  Hubby was devastated I turned him down for living with him when I came out of being lost to the street and st joseph hospital. I had seen the real world at its worst. I needed time to contemplate the rest of my life on my own. It was super tough. I had a fuck friend roomate for off and on two years. But I talked about brian to him every week. He must have been sick of it. We stayed simple friends for a while after I returned with Brian in 2009.