I often feel very good. That must be the pot doing that, But it does not mean i am doing well. That is what i have realized by rereading, appalled, my november blog. It must be because I may have skipped a dose or a week once in november. There is nothing on my calendar for that month though I know I injected once at least. very much slack of me not to have recorded the month of november. My blog alerted me to it. rereading it. Something was really really off in november. BJG lost it with me too because I was different than I had been before he left. It is hard for both of us to cope with my mental health. I am so relieved he had a year off full time work almost. I can see how this last month it is my mental health that made hubby turned aggressive on me: despair perhaps? Lack of trust about my meds? Poor hubby. I need to get better at coping with my weird thoughts and not indulging them. i am convinced I can learn skills for that specific aim. My GP weirdly thinks I dont want to take my meds. I have no idea why he thinks that: I have been taking them for 17 years and they work better than anything else I think!