The peacefulness overall and ease except when smoking heavily cannabis I have lived in the last year I am super grateful for. There has been so many happy moments of true joy and sharing. I thank the Sky for such moments so precious which were overall quite continuous in the last year. Its been a good year. Feeling gratitude makes me less fearful of ever losing everything again. It gives me serenity and strenght. I will continue therapy to get my thoughts in order every two weeks. I have to start changing some behaviours: smoking pot again, and smoking cigarettes, writing crazy emails to friends, etc.