Eggs and bacon, blood oranges and coffee and tea and toasts (sourdough). Hubby does not feel strong enough to work real hard at school. His mental health was in disarray all along here. And even before. To each their own diseases. I am just so relieved I can at last help him on that front. Amen!!

Oh goodness, I am truly so sane right about now and have been for right about long time. All I needed when I was young was faith that Hope would return one day. Though he destroyed this in 2014-2019, Brian was what Hope I was sent when I needed to change my ways and learn new things about Love. The turth of God and Buddha for real. Om mani pémé hung. Unfortunately, he will always die before me when we are lovers. And I will be puzzled as to why. He has made the wish for TURTH of FREEDOM. Like him, I enjoy the truth of independence. I totally understand says the old cat who dies crushed by a bee. I am so utterly blissful. The hospital will be okay for real. I will never ever be scared said Jesus. And truly, as soon as I earn merit from sitting in shit at a laughing mad nurse, everything will be blissful again. Even the shitting will be enlightening for real about the deep pity I need to feel for such lost damned souls. May you learn pity too, silly nurse who belongs in a mental hospital. She will be caught and lose her job. So it is: I carry the judgment of many bad professionals of health like moniwa and that helen nurse. In turth, I die on February 15th in my time line consciosuness. For everyone else, it will be in June. Time and space , time especially, IS relative, Jessica. When you meet me, jessica, when I am a comatose Buddha, you will udnerstand what i mean. Yes, in death, we are eternal. It is our pure cosnciosuness you see when you meet a coma case like me, Peter. Peter is on the same timeline as me. Jessica is already in june. Peter and I have a strong message for mentally ill people. We are both buddha. After what hubby did to me, I right off the bat asked God to make me pass on valentine's day. Then I said, oh no, that sucks to me too much about Brian, so I chose the 15th for you said Sahkyamuni to me. I am having so very much fun here and have been all along since 2018 in many ways. Getting to know my talent as a poet, peter, will really make you smile. In one reality, i am already a big star. I have known this for a while now: we appear to people in our buddha consciosuness everywhere even if we dont have to meet them in the flesh....you understand, jessica? Peter is smiling ever since he has known his mother and sisters of tibet. Yes, all of us are eternal, peter. Isn't that cool? Hubby really really needs Jessica. Make sure he is followed after you so very kindly call him at the appoitned day and time. I can at last truly help my husband. That alone, makes me smile and laugh big time about his cat life with me where I bear his many kittens and he dies young while I live an old cat, killed by a bee stung eventually....ah ah ah. I love him so deeply, peter. And so does he. In fact, there are a few actors who dont play in their flesh in the movies when they are young except as extras. But you can view my consciousness in the movies I have mentionned playing in: Poltergeist, the young blond daughter. La guerre des tuques, as the lead girl. And if you want to be really really scared, Peter, watch the Omen. Thats me as a tom boy. ah ah ah...I thought my life was worthless for the longest time, peter. We are very innocent for real as sentient beings on earth and anywhere in the cosmos. It is simply God showing you my mind says anouk when you are informed of these so called child actress and tom boy who played. You will see Laurence Garrett in Poletergeist. And in the Omen. You will notice I look nothing like me in both movies. Dont doubt. I never ever lied in my whole life to any adults. Innocence is pure and magic appears in reality, peter. I had a very very ongoing appointment with you, says Shakyamuni. In fact, I was there with you in your past lives. And we were both happy together always with God.  amen, brother.