I am smoking more today: 14 cigarettes in 7.5 hours. I will go to Mundy and forget about smoking for an hour and  a half. Feel longing for the brilliant light ray hooks of compassion says Laurie Anderson....Awakened one, listen without distraction. Even though you were shown the light of the 5 families, you were bewildered by them. if you had recognized them as your own projection, you would have dissolved and become a Sambogakaya Buddha. So now watch, without distraction.