Om mani peme hung.

Dear White Tara,

I am very afraid of our old age as hubby is getting more and more irrational with the years. More prone to violent outburst where he looses it. He is often cussing at something or another in the house when he does his stuff. The slightest drawback throws him into an angry mood and he cusses or swears impatientely. I hear it all though I am downstairs. It is very stressful in truth. 

Please, make him become more peaceful before he dies. And before I die. Protect his job and make him start working on himself for once instead of reacting to criticism in a freak out anger each time or panic. I am tired but it is rather probable he dies before me. Despite what I have been saying for 5 years. That would be tragic. He refuses to write a will, stating since we are married automatically I get everything. I dont know if that is true anymore in Canada. Social customs have changed since the 70s. May we both be protected from poverty and a terrible old age. Om mani peme hung

Om Tare Tuttare Ture Mama Ayuh Punya Jñana Pustim Kuru Svoha

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UPDATE

I am so tired yet I cannot sleep. Though the morning was glorious, the rest of the day at home was terrible. I am very worried about our old age when we will be more ill with something painful or distressing. Hubby will adjust very badly to it. And I dont think he wants to nurse me either. He has become so intolerant and impatient. Reactive and quick to get angry and start screaming. If I was more vulnerable, i would be very worried.