The last 3 days have been excessive, time to restrain myself a bit more...

So no cgarettes until 2 or 3pm right now. it is 12H50pm. The prayers should help me, by distracting me into reflection isntead of nicotine craving...

It is a bit of a shame I dont have the India pictures anymore...I dont know what happened to them. Did I throw them out by mistake by any chance? In a weird statement of non attachment? Or did they just disappear mysteriously on me at my parents house? Total mystery. It would have been fun to look over them, 20 years later.

India was mind blowing: it was the first time in my life I felt like I had an open and welcoming community. Big enlightenemnt on that with tibetans in india. And India too. So though I am impossible to befriend without being nutty yourslef a bit too, I have still amazing grace from tibet in my mind heart that tibetans impressed on me in 2003 when I lived amongst them at the nunneries, guest houses and monasteries.