I really have become rather atrocious at developing healthy relationships of friendhsips and cooperation since 2007. 2006 was too excessive in traumas and I became fucked socially since then. I really lost ALL my healthy social skills by 2007. I managed to endure a nice three years fuck friend relationship that was healthy while broken up with hubby form 2006-2008. But after that, nothing in terms of any new friendships at all whatsoever. As hubby says, i am now  most serene as a kind of a recluse socially. Listening to chod prayers and meditation cds and meditating and being in love with marvelous explorer BJG of life and adventures.