It is almost 20H00. I should eat some pasta that i cooked for both of us tonight but that neither of us touched. So sad that hubby is so strange in his mind heart. He is totally not at peace and is reactive to everything. My bath was good, i contemplated life in Montreal. If only I could crash with Billy at my parents place. Dad may want to but not mom I dont think. If all goes according to God's will, I may very well end up being a nun in THIS lifetime...Being a total non smoker would be a good beginning to prepare for this time if it ever comes. I doubt it a bit myself because of my health and the nun life is super hard. But you never know.