Yup, extremes are my to go way. Anyway, now I meditate without neither coffee nor cigarettes. And no pot this morning for me. I love how I wake up these days: praying for everyone I have known and spoken about on this blog. It is very optimistic way of waking up. Full of love and care. My sister is very fascinating in truth. Though she hardly shares her wealth with the truly needy, she has been wonderful with me while in BC. Way way more wise than both my best friends female. She loves me I know. We are so wildly different, everyone. Our respective life paths have been complete opposites. I may very well have been similar to her if I had followed a wealthy profession without mental ilness. In fact, I learned a lot by being poor, I learned what my mother and father could never teach us: generosity.