They really traumatized me here.

I am pertified by them now turning up for no reason to beat me up like in 2021 when we called for an ambulance. It is my biggest fear and it comes and goes in my daily consiousness.

I should be busy today: go do grocery. I did not leave the house much yesterday, just once, on my own. 

I really have to be more rational about seeing my doctor every month. That is what he wants so I have to do it to keep him happy. 

UPDATE

I went to do grocery and walked with a neighbour for a while. I bought milk, chickpeas and apple juice. Billy came for the errand and walk.