That is exactly how I want it tonight. Everyone resting.

It is excellent right now and I hear whiskey's regular deep breathing while he is asleep next to me in the next room on the couch and I am in the kitchen. I spoke to my dad tonight. It is such joy to see how at peace he has become. He is wise I believe and so he is happy. Thank you Guru rinpoche. I once thought he would be reborn a mentally challenged monk in tibet, master of compassion and real heart smarts. I have truly no idea where I got such orginal ideas as rebirth for my dad and so many people. They are so cute truly. As shortish rebirths. I dont have new stories of rebirth and have not had for a couple of years. It feels okay to be more sober on that front. Too much high creative perhaps manic energy and gleefulness when I create such stories or tell them as I am inspired to , rather. Anyway. dad is wonderfully happy and at peace right now especially and I ma very grateful for that. In many ways, we have become, on a superficial level, quite close to each other by speaking 5 minutes together daily, or three or 5 times a week.

This is my gift after having complained so bitterly and angrily about my failed childhood I always thought...I was mean. And ungrateful to God for the life he had given me as a youth. It was super privileged.