I am very awake and very tense I think. My shoulders hurt from tension. I think saint bruno rather than Montreal focused visit can be charming too though way more mellow. Almost boring for a 700$ airplane ticket on our non existing money. My parents did not offer to help pay for the ticket. I did not ask. They have quite a bit of money and we dont. I am tired of begging from them and them giving me 100$ for somethign that costs 2K (like saving billy's life in 2021).They dont give money easily but they are often very generous in their gifts when i ask for them. It is maybe just a different way to do things than mine.