I am certainly not feeling particularly holier than anyone these days. In 2016, in the middle of maddening despair with hubby and street pot, i had two weeks of holiness. There is no other words for it. My heart became utterly at ease, blissful and compassionate became my gaze on all I saw. it was my reward for having been so tragically mad with despair. It lasted just 10-14 days. But it was constant for that time, day and night. A really beautiful state. that is when I asked to be a nun one day for a whole lifetime to experience this state again and again, without being driven mad first to get to it next time, but through meditation, prayers and good living heart!!.