so recognize what I show you, without distraction, in your confusion you will wonder what happened to you, do not be afraid or bewildered, you have a mental body of karmic imprint, you have no physical body, so whatever sound, colours, rays of ligh appear, they cannot hurt you. samsara is reverse and everything you see will appear as light. speak Laurie Andreson on Songs of the Bardo: such a beautiful album.
it is late, it is midnight. I am making one last caffeinated coffee because I feel a bit bad and shitty tiny amout from nausea....
I will fall asleep fast tonight i hope and believe given how tired from stress I am by now after today and the scam of the card.