... I am so canadian by now- I dont want to give up my comfort zone!

But I may very well have to, in solidarity with all of Canada. I feel like I am going to be sick it is so anguish inducing. A carmelite would simply recommend her soul and mind to God if she considered she may die nasty by some terrible fate for the times, simply. I don't know what to do right now to face this possibility for me after a life of suffering violence for three years. I feel like I cannot face it. May my God be embraced totally by my heart and spirit and mind until then and in whatever capacity and throughout our end, each of us, when it comes. Om mani peme hung